Changes again....

Well after 2 visits to the shrink it has been decided that I am not bipolar but just have major depressive illness (which we already knew). So I have now stopped the bipolar medication and will soon commence on new anti depression medication. At the moment I will continue to still see the psychologist and hopefully only need to see the psychiatrist once more. Since stopping the bipolar medication my sleep is now non-existent and I feel more unmotivated then ever. Apparently the new medication will greatly help with sleep and hopefully kick start the happy chemicals again.

Weight is still the same but I'm hoping that will all change soon. I have been trying to get to the gym when I can so that is a start. Food choices are a whole other issue but all in good time.

Miss Charlotte is taking 4-5 steps at the time and is really trying to hold a conversation with anything that will listen including her toys. Her weight is slowly progressing but its her allergies and intolerance's that are holding us back and causing us issues. Her reflux still causes her issues and if I forget her medication I know about it by the afternoon as she turns into a very unhappy bubba who just curls up in a ball.

Other than that life is just rolling along.......

My life as is.....

Well I realised it has been nearly 2 years since I wrote anything so I thought I had better. Well since my last post I have had a baby girl named Charlotte. She is now nearly 13 months old and taking on the world. Healthy food choices are few and far between at the moment. I have been going to the gym a few times a week. My weight is currently about 93kg which is a bit depressing at the moment. In amongst everything else I have been diagnosed with type 2 Bipolar as well as my depression I have had for years and have been commenced on new medication which causes the munchies. I go to the psychiatrist in a week so I'm sure he will change my meds all over again. I have been struggling at times with my moods, motivation and general energy levels. Hope everyone else is going well on their journeys and not sure when I will blog again.....

My big news

Well the planets have finally aligned and I am up the duff. I am about 10 weeks along and very over it at this point. I had 1ml removed from my band a few days after I found out because I couldn't get any food down. I still have 24 hour nausea but at least I can get some food down. Since finding out 5 weeks ago I have lost about 2kg due to the nausea. Blob ( the name given to the foetus/parasite/unborn child) doesn't like meat of any description, cooked vegetables, most soft drink, water, eggs and some other foods every now and then. I have been having very low blood pressure e.g. 70/50 which makes getting up in the morning and moving quickly a little difficult and a bit dizzy. I am hoping that all the nausea, low BP and tiredness will go in a few weeks cos I am very over it. I have also decided not to find out what I am having as I want a surprise. Its funny how this decision has upset some people as they just HAVE to know......stiff. Its funny after having only a ml removed from my band it feels like I am nearly back to square 1 but I still notice I can't eat as much when I am hungry. I feel it is a combination of losing 25kg and giving up on the whole idea of having human kids. I have my fur children and it will be interesting to see how they go. They do well with other kids so they should be fine. Hope everyone else out there is going well in their lives and adventures.

Bathurst Weekend

Well it is Bathurst weekend. Its the weekend in my year that you don't expect me to do anything late Saturday afternoon or all of Sunday for safety reasons. I sit on the couch and watch the Bathurst 1000 car race. I love Holden. I always have. Unfortunately at the moment we only own Fords but its better than walking when you live on a hill as big as ours. ;) So my race weekend consists of me sitting on the couch if you come over let yourself in cos I ain't getting up and get your own food and drinks. I do everything the night before and I get up at 6.30am and make myself comfy for the coverage to start at 7am. The day is filled with junk food and soft drink but its all good in moderation.

Another thing is this morning I weighed in at 83.2kg which means I have now lost a total of 24.6kg. I am getting so close to being 80kg and below it just spurs me on that little more. I am taking my current weight with a grain of salt as I haven't been to the gym since Monday or the pool for nearly a month and have been unwell for the last week. I think I have lost muscle mass more than anything. The pool reopens on Monday as far as I am aware and I will be returning to the gym as well. I have been having a bad time with food as at the moment as I am coughing that much and I have so much gunk in my chest that it doesn't make for successful eating at times.

I also have my talk I am doing on Monday night at my surgeons seminar to people who are thinking of getting a lap band done. I am going to make notes so I don't forget what I am there for and hope I don't choke. I don't do well in front of crowds of people I don't know so it is going to be a little interesting. Oh well I have my fat pants to show where I have come from so that will put it into perspective for me.

My rollarcoaster day....

Well it started out OK.........

I got an interview with a nursing agency so I can earn some more money and be more flexible with my shifts and study.

My husband was let go from his job but he is relieved as he hated it and felt they were dangerous people to work for and felt he was being used which he was, but now its back to job hunting again and this time there is no payout for us to live on.

I had some more fill put into this afternoon and the dietitian Bronwyn and my fill Dr, Dr Azzi were very impressed with my weight loss to date. They both said I have lost as much in a year as they would have expected in 2 years. They asked me to do a talk at Octobers' Lap Band seminar for people who are thinking of having lap banding done. I have my size 22 pants ready and waiting to show off. I feel a little nervous about doing it as I don't want to scare people off having it done but also don't want to make out its easy.

So that was my day today. I have been having a very up and down week as well I suppose.....

Monday was good I got to see my new furry niece, Sarah the Rottie puppie and my human niece and nephew,Tahlia and Lochlan.
Tuesday was good I went to the psychologist and felt like I was making some big breakthroughs as well as opening more cans of worms/issues. But got to work and we were one nurse down and Dr so I was very flat out and didn't leave till after 6pm.
Today started out good and then slowly went to shit.

I can only hope my week gets better.......or else it won't be pretty.

My latest up date

Since 6th April 2009 till today I have lost

49.49cm

10.10kg

7.07% in body fat

A year on.......

Well it has been a year since I had my life changing surgery, my gastric lap band inserted. In that year I have lost nearly 23 kg, gone from a size 22 pants to a size 14-16 and lost about 2 metres off my hips, thighs, abdomen, arms and boobs. My BP has gone from 130/90 to 110/60. I don't get puffed doing simple tasks. A year ago I wouldn't go out with friends cos I was embarrassed about the way I looked and felt. I wouldn't go shopping for clothes as nothing would fit and I would come home in tears. Now I don't think twice out going out shopping or hanging with friends. Now I get up 5 days a week and go to Curves, then the pool and then to work. I feel lost if I don't go to curves and the pool I know very weired. I realise I am going to have a lifetime struggle with my weight loss and I have about 20kg to go to my end goal weight but I am well on my way there. Thanks to everyone who has supported me, encouraged me, put up with me and just plain been there for me. I will post some before and after pics when I get a chance. Thanks again.